Delicate like a quiche.

I've been meaning to write here a few times, but ultimately everything I would say would almost totally mirror what I have written in previous posts. Except to say that there has been a few minor developments.
I'm now sporting a wide variety of minor injuries from work (my poor fingers! Stupid meat slicer!), am mildly ill, have my driving theory test on Thursday and my interview with a suspiciously nice policemanofficer on the 18th about joining up again.

So really, stuff is happening. But it very much feels like it isn't. As I was talking to someone today, life is too short. So.. Why am I still here?
I appreciate 'THE PLAN' is to get my license before I do anything especially crazy. Like, move to London, resign from current jerb or act on those very kind invitations to both Australia and America by friends.
But I get the feeling even if I DID have my license, I'd still 'umh' and 'aah', because we all do don't we?
Maybe it's because I'm horribly ill, but thoughts are resting on my mind especially uneasily today. I feel like I want to reach out and just take what I want because time is a-wasting! But that's not how it works is it?

So I'll probably watch a Youtube video about social skills and.. Not do very much with it.
It's quite scary to think I'm almost 22 and still think like this. That everything hasn't fallen into place and really it's down to my own damn fool self that things haven't.
Hmm. What to do.
I was listening to a guy talk about Benjamin Franklin, how he became one of the most suave men of his time by never arguing or dealing in absolutes. Instead of telling someone they were wrong, he would comment he 'conceived it to be so' and removed all those 'bad' words from his vocabulary. Perhaps I could do something equally drastic? Because really, everything that's come before now has sort of fallen into a rather drab pile of similarity.
Oh, I've read all kinds of things! I'm fairly shit hot now, if you'll pardon my saying so, in giving advice to others and occasionally being able to deal with myself now. Something I was unable to do until a few months ago. But.. I dunno. I want there to be more. I want to achieve more and be more.

This requires further cogitation.